Dear Friend,
You say: “I chose you as a teacher “
I would like to inform you that , as far as I am concerned, you did not chose me as a teacher –
you chose your projection of me as your teacher. So in a way, your projection was your teacher?
I am not anybodies teacher. Never have been, and as I see it right now, never intend to be.
(And having said that, in another way, everybody, and everything, can be everyones teacher.)
You ask about me. Interesting phenomenon emerges.
When attempting to reply, it seems there isn’t anyone substantial enough to be substantial enough
to give a substantial reply. It seems that, not only is it not known who is there, it is not known who
it is who does not know who it is that does not know who it is. That sort of thing.
A few things that do seem to have been realised.
Sometimes, when some people want to be awake, and ‘can’t make it happen’ their mind produces a
state that simulates being awake. Having read what ‘being awake’ is supposed to be like, they then
simulate those states – compassion, understanding, gentleness.
Trouble is, these states not being real, the real stuff builds up behind.
Usually anger. Lots of suppressed anger.
Difficulty with an angry person is, it is not very safe to tell them they are angry. Not only are they in
denial, when told, they tend to get more angry. An angry person who is trying not to be angry is a
formidable phenomenon. So people tend to leave them alone and treat them the way they want to be
treated. Then even more anger builds up. So the only way to share with them about their anger is to
hint – and then stand back!
Another thing I have noticed. No matter what ‘level’ of consciousness is realised, there always seems
to be another level. What I see sometimes happening is that when someone has a significant
breakthrough, it is so dramatic, and so different from the way they have been experiencing, they tend
to think they are as fully awake as it is possible to be.
I have no idea what ‘fully awake is’ and wonder if anyone, who is still in a body (or out of it) does. I just
know that, for me, different realisations keep happening.
I have often wondered if Loa Tzu, or even more relevant, the mythical Babaji, reached the ‘ultimate state’
– or even if there is an ultimate state. If, as is said, there was no beginning, then there is no end. So never
knowing, not knowing becomes the usual state.
At a certain level I found that it is not possible to share with anyone who thinks they know – anything.
Having any sort of position, idea, agreeing or disagreeing, let alone attempting to understand, is an
effective barrier to having any new realisation.
Meeting someone in this open state is very, very rare – and recently I did. Although still in a clearing
process, they popped into the state of being beyond no. As yet, not quite beyond yes as well – and I can
feel it coming. Neat. Very, very rare.
And again to share, some people are so keen to be in this state they ‘manufacturer’ it.
There is a Sufi story about a man who, in order to attain enlightenment, was into solving puzzles.
He went to a famous Sufi Master and asked the master to give him a puzzle that would help him realise.
The master gave him a phrase to unscramble.
The disciple went away, and not wanting to be defeated, struggled, to no avail, for years.
So he went back to see the master. When he got to the ashram he was told that the master had died.
The disciple was very upset – at the thought he would never have the answer to his puzzle.
On seeing his upset the new head of the ashram asked what the distress was about.
When the disciple told him, he said he could solve it for him: the phrase was Parsi – Persian for:
‘This phrase has no meaning.’
Feeling cheated the disciple then got very angry and asked what the master had done that for. The man
said it was easy to explain. The master always gives the level the seeker is ready for.
He said, “If you had been a donkey he would have given you a carrot.”
I am finding that whatever has revealed itself is impossible to describe – even to what I used to call
‘myself.’ There still seems to be something that could be called a self, but it is so intertwined with absolutely
everything and everyone, no discernible separation is discernible.
And the overall ‘sensation’ that absolutely nothing matters is so, so strong.
A feeling of imperfect perfection where nothing is more or less significant than anything else.
Not even the smallest life form. Bless them all.
You say:
>stated that I wanted to finish waking up.
Referring to my experience, I find this an interesting statement.
>Why, what they say and do, doesn’t wake me up?
As I have shared so often – as I see it, everybody is exactly were they want to be – wanting what they
think they want, and not open to what they really need. When somebody wants to be awake, without any
conditions, the have the realisation that they are already awake , always have been – and so is everyone else.
>the parts where I have most people fooled
Again, in my experience, nobody ever fools anyone – who does not want to be fooled.
If they do not share what they are seeing it is because they are accepting the others false behaviour so they
can have their false behaviour accepted as the truth. Or the other person is afraid to share. Or can’t be
bothered. If we want, we all see each other – very clearly.
You mention about the way you see (judge?) Paul.
Again, in my experience, unless we are totally beyond any judgement – especially of ourselves, what we
think we are seeing as the other, is usually a projection of ourselves. So – useful.
I sometimes suggest to some people that they read through their emails after they have been sent –
to check out the tone/frequency/vibration.
Amazing what can come through sometimes.
Un-seriously – me…