Thank you for sharing about your awakening experience.
“…. for the recent 2 weeks I have often felt I just want to disappear,
to float off, to not be here, tears and I don’t know. Many many beautiful
times too. Maybe just feeling so much of peoples stuff, and also to
include how much I feel they are just so wonderful and beautiful.
Did you feel this… despondency!”
Although not all, for the few people I have read about who have had
awakenings, most seem to need an adjusting period.
What needs to be realised is that you are now in a totally different
reality from anyone you know. You are actually living in a different
dimension. On one level everything looks and sounds the same, but,
as you are now experiencing, what you are seeing, hearing, experiencing
is totally different from everyone else.
Until you fully drop into this you are likely to translate what you are
feeling as despondency. When yes is allowed it becomes a gentle joy.
So that may be how it is that you are going in and out of feeling that
people are wonderful and beautiful.
You are now seeing and experiencing a deeper level of reality than those
around you. It is like you are now seeing in colour, and now matter how
‘advanced’ they think they are, until they allow their awakening, other
people are still seeing in monotones. There is no way to describe to them
what is happening for you.
Once this is deeply allowed you will no longer feel despondent.
Just a gentle joy. And in time, that may fade as well – leaving –
Wanting to disappear and float off is understandable in one way.
Until you have fully let in what you have allowed to happen to you there
is a tendency to feel alone, and no longer any point staying in the
shallow reality that most people are thinking they are experiencing.
And, you are now getting glimpses of their beauty. The deeper you feel
your own, the deeper you will see and experience their’s – even if they do
Once an awakening has been allowed there comes some interesting
experiences. One is that you start to ’feel’ other people – and most
people are in pain. So you feel their pain – almost as if it is yours –
which on one level, it is. Then there is all that old physical stuff.
Seems so outdated and unnecessary.
What I have come to see is that, on any level, pain is resistance.
Not being with what is. So here I am; so here I am. This is it.
And as for floating off – how do we know there is anywhere to which
we can float?
One one level we are living on a planet mostly inhabited with beings who
are behaving in ugly and violent ways. Very. Yet, as you see (most of the
time?) this is just a surface level. At one level, everyone is beautiful.
And this is physically a very delightful dimension – with at least some
people allowing the beauty of their inner love and caring.
Next possible source of despondency. As you are now experiencing, as you
go past empathising with people’s habitual behaviour, you start to see
their delightful and unique beauty. Wonderful.
So you want to help them see that beautiful part of themselves.
That is when you have the realisation that most people do not want to
change. They love the way they are. They would like to feel better – but
not too much or they would not have an excuse to hold on to their story,
and thus have a solid basis for their complaints.
Have to get used to that one, and just let them be.
Communicating from your dimension to theirs is a skill – that needs to be
developed. Naturally, your being-ness assumes that they are experiencing
the reality that you are. Not so. So you have to tune in to them, connect
with where they think they are, and go from there. Takes practice.
Welcome to the new dimension of planet earth…