Hi Love
Thank you for sharing what is going on for you.
Lovely.
What I have said many times, and may not have yet got over,
is that the mind cannot possibly have any idea at all
of what it is like not to have a mind!
“Unless you die and be reborn.”
Yet, it is not dying, and there is no rebirth.
You say:
“Today I had a thought.”
There starts the whole deception.
The mind can only think, and the only information it has to think with
is what it has been told – in the past, about the past.
“It appears to me that you represent something my mind is not ready for.
You represent to my mind it’s end.”
The mind’s job is to take care of you – the best way it knows how –
so it is never ready to give up its duty.
“This is all totally the minds fantasy and yet there it is.”
As I say, that is all the mind is capable of – fantasy.
Trouble is, we take it seriously – as though it is telling us facts.
“Yesterday I had the urge to ask you,
what actually happens when we completely disconnect from the mind?”
Your mind will never know.
Silly rhyme:
‘Today while going down the stair
I met a man who wasn’t there.
He wasn’t there again today –
I wish that man would go away.’
How can the mind know what it is like not to have a mind!
“I had a strong awareness that I am far from this place.
It actually felt like a victory for my soul that I realised how truly far
away I am from this experience.”
A victory – or a relief!
Like science – in order to attempt to describe the indescribable,
science has made up its own language – mathematics –
then takes them as facts.
Just for this exercise, take it that there is no time, and no space –
so you are never far, nor never close to it – it just is.
Being far away from it is just an illusion.
“Was there a moment when this happened for you or was it gradual?”
I have no idea. In a series of realisations – I think!
“What is left after the sense of I disappears, how does one truly function?”
There is a realisation – that is indescribable. One/No-one with everything.
I still have a fully functioning mind – in the essential ways, the best
ever. I am open to the possibility that at another stage the mind does disappear
completely – but then how would one know – if there is no mind to know!
At the moment the mind is alive and well – and doing its job better than
ever. It chats away most of the time. The difference seems to be, I only take
note when it brings up something that is appropriate in the moment.
Also, it is still used as an interpreter – to bring in information
from the unformed/the future, into this dimension.
The only way to be one with the moment seems to be by letting go of the
identification with the commentator.
Then – the indescribable. Not even *being one with everything*
“The Peace that passeth all understanding.” “The Kingdom of God.”
The Tao. The Way. The Hidden Harmony.
So keep remembering – whatever you think being without a mind is like –
it is not that. So at least you now know what it is not!
Being in the moment, unconditionally, just as it is –
and being open for absolutely anything.
More when we meet – if you still feel to!
Sending you lots of supportive love