After reading your question, this is what popped up.
As usual, when I go to reply to you something more general
usually pops in – so it becomes something for the list as well.
So this is not all personal, and, much of it is a reminder for all
I do know that you care and take care of many people
in your life. And, what is suggested is not just something to
be included in life, it is an orientation – going beyond the
behaviour of just the self, combined with having as the
priority unconditional consciousness in each moment .
On the level of feeling personally safe, secure and predictable
there does not seem to be any permanent satisfactory answer –
except when it is no longer a priority!
What I get from Tony Parsons, and from people who are recognising
this state for themselves, and from my experience, everything is for us –
whether we recognise it or not.
So if we are uncomfortable we are resisting something.
It is a matter of just being in that moment and looking see if we are
missing something that is there for us.
It is a perspective – that everything, in every moment, is there for us.
(And even it is not – in that moment, it is there anyway!)
If the main energy is on survival and getting what we want the way
we want it, nothing seems to fulfill. Ever. Or if it seems to, it is only
for a short time. Then the whole process of discontent starts all over again.
Watching and listening to people like Tony Parson can resonate a part of us
with which we are not in touch, but in order for that to happen we
have to disconnect from our old ways, and be open for something
totally different. Totally.
For instance, when you meet someone who is devoting their lives to
something bigger than their own desires, there is something different
about them. It is like an inner peace. And gratitude.
And it is not either or. The personal is relevant, but if the personal is
the main focus then that elusive feeling of fulfillment does not mature.
A thing to watch out for is any being against, or resentment, or complaint.
Of course such feelings may pop up, but then what is needed, without going
to the opposite, positive thinking, just disconnect, and absorb.
I love Tony Parsons’ expression: Living in Loveness.
So, looking back, is your life more of a complaint, or gratefulness.
Sending you lots of love