When the sense of self dissipates everything feels just right, perfect.
Life keeps flowing and with that comes a sense of blending and melting with everybody and everything.
You start to feel delightfully fulfilled, caring, loving, light, playful.
Here’s a bit more about the experience of what, who we call Paul.
When this is … where I’ve got to so far trying to explain the unexplainable is, when the sense of self weakens, starts to disappear, dissipate, a strong sense of self and a feeling of blending, and moving around. And when meeting someone, instead of there’s an absolute ‘me’ and an absolute ‘them’, the empathy becomes so strong that in a way, it’s hard to define who’s one and who’s the other. It all becomes so blended.
When this happens, there’s a feeling of … we don’t actually have the free will, we think we have. It’s as though life happens. And if we’re present with the moment and with what is happening, it seems to flow. If we’re … a person … seeing things … a way … that we’ve been programmed to see, the way things are, then it’s as though nothing out there is ever quite right. But when all that dissolves somewhat, it’s as though everything is just right, “Oh, yes! This, that.” There’s a … a melting, a blending and with that there’s this feeling that….
Now, I know to the mind this may not connect, but everything is perfect, if we’re just here, now … it’s perfect.
And if we don’t hold onto anything, it keeps moving and blending and flowing. And so do we, and so does everything. And with that becomes a sense of … and then again there is no real word, let’s say ‘fulfillment’. You feel fulfilled. Another word is ‘you feel good’. And it’s not a good that’s opposite of bad. It’s delightful.
And my description at the moment is loving, caring, light, playful, sweet.