This moment is perfect. It is exactly what you need.
You are saying, you feel disoriented. I say, I am feeling disoriented. So you say, “What you think is happening?”
Well I feel as though I know what’s happening, but I can’t get that knowingness here. It’s as though I know perfectly well what’s happening, and I can’t get it here enough, clear enough to even show myself, let alone you.
And when I go to say what’s happening, I keep coming to this stop point because it’s as though it’s clear what’s coming through, then it meets the fog of my mind. And then, when I go to share it with you, I feel as though it’s get divided – you’re gonna divide it into one side or the other. And this new thing doesn’t have one side or the other; it only has one. And it’s not one side, it’s just one which includes both. So, in the east they say “Neti Neti” which means “not this, not that” and I say “this and that”.
Watching the Gurdjieff DVD the other day, although not very well made, it just reminded me: Yes! yes! yes! Things are just clicking in. As I saw Gurdjieff, he is saying exactly the same thing that I am attempting to say, exactly the same thing. Only he used quite dynamic situations.
As a Naqshbandi of Sufis do, they create situations to throw you into something so you see it for yourself. So what he was saying, as I see it, is the same thing Khrisnamurti was saying, and the same thing most people are attempting to share who have seen it for themselves, is: Be here now.
And then, how the average mind translates that is “Be here now” with the duality of the mind. And this “Be here now” has no duality. Or, in fact it does have duality, but it includes them both. It includes everything. It includes everything that is going on in the mind. It includes that you can -if you do- you can see what you are saying, what you are doing, what you are thinking – it will include it, but it also includes what it’s thinking. So, the mind may say “oh, you are supposed to be…” – and it includes that, it doesn’t judge it, it just scoops that in as well. “Oh yes, I am supposed to be that…”, “oh, I can see that I am saying I am supposed to be like that…” – yes to that, yes to that, yes to that.
And what I feel is happening that I can’t, I definitely can’t say to you “this is happening”, but this is what I feel, this is what I sense, is: We are in transition. And as soon as I say that what comes up is: Well, we are always in transition because that’s all anything is, is transition. There is no moment because everything is moving. If you are looking in an electro microscope you see that every molecule, every bit of everything is shifting and moving and changing all the time. So there isn’t a moment, everything is movement – and yet we need to be here with this movement.
And when I say that, when I say ‘’with’’, I immediately come up with: Most people are resisting this moment with complaint. “I don’t want this. I do want that!” – and that’s the loop … in the East they call Samsara, that’s what keeps you in this moment because you are saying: I will not experience this moment just how it is. So you are stuck, forever. Because this moment is just how it is. That’s all it is. And not only is it just the way it is, it’s exactly what we need in every moment. You need this moment; it’s showing you something. And if you don’t say yes to it, if you don’t say “welcome moment”, whatever it is, including the disorientation, you gonna keep fighting it over and over and over – and existence has infinite amount of energy and time – us as our little selves – no chance.
So what I see is: the veils are thinning. And the difference between what we think is reality and what is reality is shifting, is moving. So I’ve said before, I spend time with a woman once, who saw people who are not in their bodies. John Edward on television, I don’t think he sees them but he hears them. Oh I think he sees them sometimes as well. He hears them, they talk to him – and that’s as real to him as the chair you are sitting on now, or whatever. It’s real, it’s absolute, it’s as real as anything is to you.
And the same with this woman, she would chat to these people. What I loved was: when she met you, she would say, “Are you manifest on this plane?” And if you looked as though you didn’t understand what she was saying, she knew you where, you where here. But to her, to room was full of people. And they were all as real as anyone else. Only some were in physical bodies, and some looked as though they were in physical bodies and weren’t. So she was seeing another reality. And to me there was no doubt, because what she was talking about, unless she could read parts of my mind that I didn’t know about, she absolutely knew things that nobody else knew. So she was living in another reality. And as I see it, right here, right now, whoever you are, whatever you are, there is another reality, there are another levels.
Now, if we just go to the scientific level as we know it now, if you just look under a microscope, let alone an electron microscope, and you just see what’s going on there… take, take a glass of water and look in the water, it’s full of life. Take any part of your body, and it’s full of life. Any part of anything, and it’s full of life. And we don’t see that.
Scientists are telling us there is no color out there, there is no sound out there. Our brains take the frequency, the vibrations, and convert color, convert sound, and we all, infinitesimally different, we all translate these colors and sounds slightly differently. We are all living in a different universe in a way, and the veils are getting thinner. And some of us are being invited to experience this new dimension. So how we can do with that?
Here is how: you have to let go of what you think is reality because it’s not. It’s just a tiny part of reality. You got to stop holding it. You got to stop investing in it. And, go on the web and listen to the alternatives. It doesn’t matter whether it’s true or not, you need to unscramble your mind. You gotta un-program your mind – and so at least it get’s jumbled. And I think that’s what’s happening you see, I think that’s the disorientation.
Again we come to the chrysalis, the butterfly chrysalis, and the joke I love:
Two caterpillars, sitting on a leave, munching away, and a butterfly comes by. And the one caterpillar says to the other caterpillar, “You never get me up in one of those things.”
The caterpillar goes into a chrysalis, and it doesn’t transform – the chrysalis dis appears. It totally disintegrates. It’s so disintegrated it no longer has form, it’s a mush. And out of that mush comes the butterfly. So what I am seeing is, now, we are in transition, and we need to allow this transition.
Now, is it pleasant? Well, the discomfort you feel depends entirely on your resistance. Resist it, want it your way, which is a sickness, because you are wanting an old way that doesn’t work. If it did work, you’d be feeling wonderful. It’s not working, and that’s what you are holding on to. And you are saying: If I modify it, if I do this, if I do that. But just look at history: Who is happy? Only the people that have let all that go. “Thy will be done”, “Take no thought of tomorrow”, “Be here now”, “Thou art that”, “The kingdom of god is within”, “Unless you leave your father, mother, sisters and brothers, wife and children, unless you leave everything…” – let it go, stop holding it, its not working.
But then the mind says: But what then? Well, you don’t know what’s then – “unless you die, and be reborn”. You may die. But really, the way people go on their life supporting machines to live an extra few months – and they are in misery. What do you want to live longer for in misery? It’s just an old conditioning, a physical conditioning – don’t hold on to that. Be ready to die, be ready to let everything go – don’t hold.
And then, there may be disorientation, but it’s not disorienting you. There is disorientation, but you are not the disorientation any more. It’s happening, but you are not involved in it, you are not caught up in the wheel, you are not going round with it – it’s just happening. And as it does, every now and again, suddenly you have a mini satori, you suddenly see clearly. When you do this a wave of bliss: Ah, yes! Everything is perfect, this is exactly the way it’s supposed to be. It’s for me. It’s with me.
And then you may lose it again for a while because something else has to change. And, if you are going to stay in the body, in this new state, the body has to adjust, the physical has to adjust. I was hearing of somebody the other day that was woken up in the night with a violent headache, thinking tumor. It was so so strong. – Can be just a shift. I can remember often I had literally physical shifts in my head. I could feel my head shifting. Not thoughts, but physically shifting, changing, moving. Khrisnamurti, in his transition had violent headaches and pains.
Yes, yes, this is part of it, transition, or could be – you don’t know, but it could be. My guess is: yes it is. And that’s what all the people that have gone through have said: “Dark night of the soul”. What’s the dark night of the soul?
I tell you what the dark night of the soul is. It’s, as you let go of how you see things are, you can’t see anything else. You can’t see where you are going, or who you are or what you are doing. And not only that, you can’t see who it is that doesn’t know. Everything is gone, your very foundation is gone, you’ve gone. You don’t know anything anymore.
And then, if you fight that dark night of the soul… if you are an adventurer, you say: Oh, something is happening. I wanna know what’s happening. I wanna know what’s, what’s evolving. I am here, I am yes, I am going with it. Whatever it is, I am going with it.
So that goes on in one way, and in another way: the peace, that passes understanding – the stillness, that’s still moving – gentle, sweet, here, now.
And it is. That place is here now, in everyone of us. Especially those of you who are listening to this. It’s not coincidence that you are listening to this. It’s not a coincidence that you are on this site or somebody sent it to you. There is no coincidences. You brought this to you, because this is what you need to hear. Whether you agree with it or don’t, whether you understand it or don’t, it doesn’t matter. There is a frequency, there is a vibration happening in things.
Again science is telling us that they are now measuring frequencies. This is what quantum physics is doing, the quantum theory. Measuring things that, up to now, we didn’t even know existed, let alone measure them. There is a frequency, there is a vibration – something is happening, and for the sweetest, gentlest, easiest ride, you need to let it happen. And how do we let it happen? We stop fighting happening, we stop holding on to the old in any way whatsoever, any way.
And if you stop holding, what you need will stay with you – and what you don’t need will drift away. And anything you do need will find you. Even if you say: Ah, I can’t find anybody to be with… – they’ll come from the other side of the world if you make space for it. You become a vacuum, you become a suction, you’ll bring them to you – if that’s what they need and that’s what you need, or any situation the same.
So, disorientation? Wonderful!
It’s disintegrating the old, which wasn’t working. If it was working, you wouldn’t have this happening – you’d already be in bliss, it wasn’t working. And even if it was working, nothing stays the same. The only way it keeps working is by shifting and changing and moving, and being with life as it evolves.