Most of us, most of the time, are looking for existence to fit our neurosis.
When it fits the shape of our neurosis we feel good, secure, satisfied.
This recording includes a Spanish translation by Vikrant Sentis.
The one thing that comes up is a saying attributed to Heraclites, “The Hidden Harmony”. And I think that’s the way that I now assume things are. There’s a perfect harmony happening. Everything is harmony. And when it doesn’t look like harmony, it’s us taking a position. And the position says, without us realizing it, “I will not be happy unless this is like this, and this is like this, and this is like this.”
So, we’re looking for what we call existence, the outside, to fit our neurosis. When it’s the shape of our neurosis, we say that’s good.
And again, that’s what happens in relationship. If a person is in the harmony, the state, they don’t look for a relationship, because they don’t need one. They’re already in the state, perfection, the realization that everything is perfect, and open for whatever happens or doesn’t happen – part, flowing with the harmony.
And most people, most of the time, are not in that state. So, they’re looking for something to create that feeling inside. So, some go after money, some go after fame and success and relationships, but it’s all to try and satisfy the distortion of their neurosis.
And in a Satori, when there’s a realization, there’s the realization everything is always perfect. It’s always exactly perfect, and what I need. Usually, when we’re looking for a partner, we’re looking for somebody to fit in to our neurosis, so that we’ll feel good. And of course, they’re doing the same. So, “I want you like this, so I feel good.” And they say, “No, I want you like this, so I feel good.” But it’s not recognized. It’s done unconsciously.
And in fact, the best possibility is to find a partner, live with them, and a person who keeps making you angry. Everything they do and everything they say, upsets you. That’s a perfect relationship, because it helps you to see yourself. It’s no good bothering to see them, you need to see you. What is not in balance in you? So, as you find a partner that upsets you, it helps you to see yourself more clearly. And every time you get upset, “Thank you very much.”
And in the state, Alan Watts, I met him once in Sausalito, San Francisco. I went on his boat and he had, as far as I can see, he had been in the state. He was no longer in it, but he wrote about it in his memories. And I can’t remember, but most of the people that have that, they write things like, “Be here, now. This is it. Take no thought of tomorrow. Be presently here, unconditionally, as you possibly know how.”
And unconditionally, doesn’t mean without conditions. Unconditionally means, yes to your conditions. It’s just yes. Yes. This is what is at the moment. This is how I’m feeling. This is the circumstance. Yes. I’ll be with this. And then, The Peace that
Passeth all Understanding. It’s not understood. It’s just …, and then there’s no word.
You see, if I say then it’s sensed, but it’s not a sense. If I say it’s felt, it’s not a feeling. It’s unexplainable. The truth cannot be said. If it’s said, it’s not the truth.
And people like Alan Watts who had that, people who do the Satori group and have an awakening, they all have a similar state, that they can’t explain, because every word from the mind has an opposite. And this state has no opposite. So, we could say it’s a state of love, but it’s not love as we know it, because it’s not the opposite of no-love. It’s just unconditionally universal, not only to everybody, but to everything.
It’s a state.
And to me, it tingles. Tingles. It tingles in the body. It tingles in the air. Everybody’s tingling. Nothing is solid, which, of course, is what science is saying, “Nothing is solid.” There’s no basic solid energy. It’s energy. It’s not solid. So, I describe it as a tingling.
Just close your eyes for a little while and see your interpretation of tingling. And if you get in touch with something, imagine that tingling right out to the edge of your skin. And then imagine, it doesn’t end at the skin, there’s tingling on the outside as well. And you’re tingling on the inside and the outside. It’s in unison. It’s together, not separate. And then that tingling, in a unique way, is in everybody and everything. Everything is tingling. And not only are we part of it, we are it and it is us. Tingling.
Now, just as imagination, feel that tingling in the body and just imagine as you walk, the tingling, that was you, doesn’t move. It’s you that moves. Your unique tingling moves through the tingling. It’s as though you disintegrate and integrate, moment to moment.
Nothing is really solid. It’s a flowing and everything in harmony with everything. And whatever happens, it’s for us, opportunity. And we don’t have to do anything, just allow. So, just play with this. Is that sound of the rain inside, outside or just is.
And take your time, come back when you’re ready. And experiment with that through the day.