“Hi Paul,
Thank you. There is something I would like to ask and there is also nothing.
And as I write it I see it’s this nothing that is touching me. I am very emotional
lately and it looks like there is nothing anymore. No reason to live but also not
to die. Wherever I go whatever I do there is nothing. Even complaint, may be
this is a complaint. I am not missing it. I tried to create what I am living for.
On one hand I can laugh about it. It’s strange. Even sitting or writing to you.
The one thing that’s coming up again and again, I am touched by everybody
and everything and I have to cry. Of course I don’t have to, and it’s just happening.
I wish a wonderful time for all of you. Lot’s of love…”
Dearest,
You are in a wonderful state, and you are not yet recognising it.
This Is It. There is nothing to live for, or to die for… there is no point to life.
This Is It. This is all there is. There is no point to it, it just is.
You feel like writing an e-mail, so you do. No point is needed.
If you look to the future to try to see what you are living for you will be sad
— because there is nothing to live ‘for’ because ‘for’ is in the future, and nothing
ever happens in the future.
When it happens it is now. It is always now. This Is It.
Yes, looking into the future, wanting a point or something to live for is a complaint.
Be here now and enjoy this very moment — gratefully. Of course you are going to
be touched. As you become less defended you are going to be more sensitive, and
see that everything is touching.
That is the way it is! Be touched; let life happen to you; live!
The ‘it’ is happening for you dear friend. Celebrate!
With much love and support… paul